Bleak.♥

Thought I was getting better 
Thought I was getting stronger 
Why do I feel sad 
Why am I crying 
I should not hurt so 
Things he says 
Things he does

Should no longer pain me so 
But I hurt I cry
The tears run down my cheeks 
I wipe them away, 
but they keep falling I think of my future 
So bleak 
So dim 
So lonely

I can’t imagine anyone wanting me 
I am nothing special 
Nothing pretty 
Slim, or outgoing
I could not believe someone wanted to marry me 
I never had dates Never a serious relationship 
Then he came along 
Swept me off my feet 
Promised me the world 
But never gave it to me 
Only gave me grief, pain, heartache

I know its time to leave 
But I’m scared I’m terrified, of being on my own 
Completely on my own 
This is new for me, a huge step 
A fearful leap 
Of faith? 
Or a fall to my death? 
I don’t have a job 
Not even a college education 
What do I do 
Where do I go I know 
I can’t take much more 
The pain is suffocating 
Killing me I need closeness, love, caring 
This emptiness 
Lack of touch 
Tenderness no more 
Is not the future for me ..